I feel unsettled, with a creeping sense that things are not okay. I have too many uncertain situations to feel comfortable right now. So many things could move forward, or backward, or stall completely, and some of them are fairly important.

I know that things are exactly how they are supposed to be at this moment, and that this is true in every moment. I know that even when we feel we're moving backward or standing still, we are progressing in some way that we may not be able to discern until later. I believe all that, and yet I have very limited patience for moments like the one I'm having now, when I'm very frightened and wondering where I'm headed.

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