The word of the day is: ambivalent. I can't work up any excitement about anything today.

Since I can't know what's coming next, I don't want to do anything at all. I feel like assuming a holding pattern and keeping everyone at a distance. I don't want to risk more than I already have. The prospect of getting hurt now, by anyone, is frightening enough to send me back into seclusion.

I don't have any solid evidence that anything is about to fall apart. I just have that feeling again, that feeling that I'm about to be left hanging.

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